[Sometimes it's not easy to forget someone, -rather impossible thing if this someone is you're best friend But what do? I think at makes you stronger somewher so keep your head upright folks...]



Silver - "Forgiven"

I still regret I turned my back on you
No one makes me feel the way you do
never meant to cause you trouble
never meant to do you harm
I was weakened by temptation's wing of charm

I want to be forgiven
I want to hold you in my arms again
to be forgiven
cause I still need a friend
I want te be forgiven
I want to hold you in my arms again
to be forgiven cause I still need a friend
I want to be forgiven

almost drowning in the sea of sin
can you ease the pain I feel within?





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Hi there

It's another bored evening, and I'm searching for good pics, checking my mail and answer my comments
Such as an amount of new faves I found other things...:

First, a rose for all the people which are caring for others!

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... and (not in this sense) a little questionary which can be filled out by whom want to do so.. (do it aaaall )
(found in miiyak0's journal)

-Who are you?
-Are we friends?
-When and How do we met?
-Would you kiss me? Where?
-Give me a nickname and tell me why would you call me that?
-Describe me in a word:
-What was the first impression you had of me?
-Do you still think/feel the same?
-What things make you remember me?
-If you could give me something, what would it be?
-How good do you know me?
-Are you gonna put this in your journal so I can say what I think about you?
-Do you want to know me, personally? (this one is not compulsory ^^)

I Wish you a nice evening, and amounts of creativity


c0rdita

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I have the wish to make a journal a little bit more nonsens, e little less serious...
so another useless Journal from me for you


What I like / love:

- colourful umbrellas
-- rainy afternoons
--- warm mornings in summer
---- when someone has stile
----- listening to the rain when I get to sleep
------ the smell of concrete (building lots in general)
------- chocolate (in all forms)
------- snowboarding
-------- Disney-songs (and the films)
-------- Music in general
--------- The name "Leonie"
--------- pure cold water
--------- dancing
--------- singing
--------- laughing
-------- all sorts of animals (especially cats)
-------- missing lessons in school
------- sleeping the whole mornig
------- finding a song/something I've searched for along time
------ meeting friends
----- reding books
---- Sitting in warm cafés on foggy winterdays
--- drinking exotic teas
--- learning 'bout new cultures
-- take photographs
- climb
-- go shopping with friends
--- invent myself new
--- draw
---- being creative in general
---- talk ^^
---- Bollywood-films
---- working with my PC
--- deviantArt
--- my friends
-- broad mindedness
- Dreaming
-- being satisfied with a work I've done
-- apparatus gymnastic
-- sleeping
-- dive (breathing underwater)
- holidays
-- cuddles
-- french (the language)
-- Starbucks
- freaks like me
- compliments


What I dislike / hate:

- nonpolitical as a positive adverb
-- chicks (in female form)
--- losses
---- death (even if it belongs to the natural circle)
---- cruelty to animals (that I really hate the most!!!)
----- Hypocrisie
----- loose things
----- trance/ techno
---- parsnip
---- my hair
--- having cold
-- my figure
- world crisis
-- cruelty in general
--- wheightproblems
---- fights
-- rain, when I smothened my hair
-- bad marks in school
- fear
-- rascisme (!)
- italian (the language)





I'd like to thank all those people who were helping me through my hard time caused by the loss of my dearest kitty...
So thank you!!!
(and special thanks to the whole ~circle-of-friends club!!! -it's a complet other experience to be helped, than helping.. But it's a wonderful feeling to know that somewhere in this rather anonyme cyberspace are caring people..)

I want to dedicate this journal to my kitty, she was called "Stardust" because of her grey coat. She died yesterday with 16 years.

She died on day before we came home from two weeks of holidays.

I can't stop thinking of her. And thinking of her makes me crying. I have the impression that she's still hiding in her secret corner. And I find myself searching for her.
Why she had to die so alone? I would give her a year from my life, just to have the chance to be with her in her last days, or even hours.
It tortures me to know that she might have died earlier because she felt so alone.

Everytime when I needed her,she was there. And the one time she needed me, I wasn't there. I'm even not strong enough to see her dead body. And I cannot say if it is because I want to protect the living image of her..

...She died alone, with no one by her side, who could hold her calmly in her last hours. Why does she had to die when the whole family was in holidays? The neighbours who were looking about her, sayd that she felt alone, she was searching for us. And they sayd that she was often in my room.. I cannot help me, but I think always that she tried to be alive. That we were too long away. that we came too late. That her week body wasn't able to keep her alive till we were back.
In her last hours she could not held her excrements, she was so week.
Sure I know that she was old. But she was my cat, the one who welcomes you when you're arriving at home.
The last weeks I used to clean her pelt with a comb, because she wasn't able to clean herself clearly anymore... The others sayd that I exaggerated but I love her so much - I'd done nearly everything for her.

I have to look after 197 Deviations, 55 Messages, and 6 Notes and I don't know where I should take the force to do this.

I the way, she came to say me hello.
I her soft skin
I her calmness, when I was upset
I the way she slept on my jacket
I her little "meoww's" the morning or every moment she was hungry
I her patience when I was crying into her belly
I this anxious curiosity she showed with every new thing
I her smell
I her strange mouvements, when she cleaned her coat

...And now she's gone...

Dusty, I loved you with every beat of my heart. And I suffer with every moment without you. I hope you are on a good place now. I still love you!


Isabel

hi!

c0rdita has forgotten to tell you a very important information.

... She's on holidays (29.9-14.10) in ... ah I had fogotten it ^^


friendly greetings from c0rdita and me (~Nanaami)

(sorry Isa I'm not an english genius ^^)