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scared about the future..

Tue Aug 26, 2008, 1:18 PM
  • Mood: Worried
  • Listening to: Coldplay - Fix you
  • Reading: Crisis, as a chance
  • Watching: Dr. House
"..I've been trying hard to reach you, cause I don't know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and I wanna talk to you
Oh I wanna talk to you
You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?.."
[Coldplay - Talk]


I'm so scared about the future. About half a year ago, I've broke up the college of education (I've been there for a semester). Now, I decided to do the "Fachmatur" in the domain of art (difficult to explain what's the loval value in other states because the formation is a new one) and for this I have to participate to some school courses and I work in an 80% stage in a graphic studio where I have my own project about photography.

But in some strange way I am very unhappy with my situation. Whether I know how to fill 17 weeks with just one project (I tend to be enthousiastic at first, and then losing quickly my intrest) nor I feel comfortable with the fact that I have to work nearly complete on my own. I miss alot of parts from my old life and the school friends around me.
I'm unsure if my talent is enough to be part of this rough world of art.
I'm unsure if I will succeed in my plans. -I need certainty and maybe a little more time to be sure what I want to do with my life.
But I don't have this time because with my 21 I'm quite old for a first apprenticeship or formation. And this occupates me alot.

Luckily I'm in a very good relationship which keeps me grounded. But he cannot understand my situation completely and so his help is limited. He can 'only' give me his love. And only when he has time beside his own life.

So I try to manage my life and my future. And so I stay scared..

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*taintedbliss Aug 26, 2008, 8:27:46 PM
Stay focused. :) I think it's good that your scared. We all get worried when we enter into new experiences and that's a good thing. Feeling a little scared shows how much it all means to us. It makes us more careful in our decisions. :) Since you know what your like, maybe this experience would be a fantastic way for you to cultivate self discipline. To follow through with your projects and finally see what your REALLY capable of artistically. :)

Look at this as an opportunity. :) Not a punishment. It's not going to be easy but I bet the fruits are going to be so much sweeter!

I wish you all the best dear! :hug:

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Shir

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~mollymelone Aug 27, 2008, 7:15:04 AM
Ich weiss nit genau ob ich dir jetzt uf Änglisch ode rDütsch söll zruggschribe, ich mach mol uf dütsch,s andere wär z absurd.
Also, hey, wie guet kanich di verstoh! Ich wird(falls ichs im 1. Alauf schaff) mini Matur mit 20 ha, 4 Mönet vor mim 21. Geburtsdaag und ich wott e Zwüschejoor mache. Also bi ich scho mol witer zrugg als du.
Luschtigerwiis will au ich öbbis mit Fotografie mache und weiss au nit, ob ich irgend e Chance uf däm Gebiet ha wird und was wenn nit?
Ich glaub die Sorge sin eifach vollkomme normal und teilwiis au berächtigt. Due dr eifach nit z viel Gedangge drum mache. Wenn Fotografie das isch, wo du wirklich willsch mache, denn machs. Go for it! Wenn nit, denn mach Pro/Contra Lischte oder so.
Viel Glügg Isa!
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~nwolf Aug 27, 2008, 10:13:40 AM
Love...
Being scared is only natural. Moving through the fear is a testament to your strength. Your uncertainy soulds like your restless nature. But to progress in the area's you wish to. You must settle your heart and show the world your talents.

Unfinished works are easy. They embrace the possibilities of what could be. But to finish shows what it has become.
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~emberleo Aug 27, 2008, 2:20:13 PM
I'm sure everything will turn out wonderfully. I recieved a degree last year in graphics and have yet to get a job. Things just take time and let me assure you, you aren't too old. I'm 28 afteral and I know I can still make it provided I can get moved to the right area. So, chin up...just keep at it if you love it. If you think you'd do better with something else then go for that!
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*kasumiakiko Aug 27, 2008, 8:30:01 PM
You are very talented, your work here shows that. Don't let fear overwhelm you.

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"There are heroes in evil as well as in good." - Francois Duc de la Rochefoucauld, Maxims (no. 194)
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~Xdra Aug 28, 2008, 4:12:38 AM
dont be hard on yourself. Its said that people change their careers 7 times in their lives. The first thing you study is probably not going to be the last thing you decide to do in your life. All you do is focus on whats making you happy currently.
and dont worry people's opinions of your work are over rated. :P they dont count - all that matters is what you feel about your work, your life, and how it forfills you.

keep on and take it easy, sometimes anyone can feel overwhelmed with a sense of responsibility for their own future. feel it but dont hang on to it. :hug:

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~damorpheus Aug 28, 2008, 4:57:33 AM
bein happy about the "now" usually works for me... the future can wait .. and hey look after yourself cos if u do now then the future will be way cool :hug:

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*cesalv Aug 28, 2008, 12:26:47 PM
Being not scared sometimes is not good (at least, being scared means that you are already alive), and most of the times is the previous step before something goes bad.

Changes do not necessary means something bad, sooner or later you'll have to learn how to use it, and, by the way, working on your own is a must to be learned too.

Don't worry about the age, there are things more important than how old are you, ie: creativity, ideas, the way to get objectives accomplished. Search for another handycap but age, since you had demonstrated your abilities here, you only need to believe in yourself and everything will go round ^_^
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~jmorante77 Aug 30, 2008, 8:39:42 AM
Gut, die sachen im leben wechseln immer, aber das nicht etwas schlechtes bedeutet. Wenn du lust hast , um etwas zu machen, mach es! Der weg ist nicht wichting, nur das Ziel.... :)

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"A bank is a place where they lend you an umbrella in fair weather and ask for it back when it begins to rain." Mark Twain.
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