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Fri Jan 11, 2008, 3:51 AM

Mood: Worried
Listening to: Einstürzende Neubauten - Stella Maris
Eating: chocolate
Drinking: fruit tea

I am at a moment in my school that I have to admit that I am maybe on the wrong place.
The school I do is the teacher training college. I'm there about half a year. Now it's the time that everybody can prove the new knowledge in a practical month.
And although I guide a group by the scouts and I'm very successfull there I don't feel myself comfortable in this kindergarten in the role of the teacher.
I think this is not the way I want to go for the next half life.
But if I want to do study psychology in a university, I need a higher school. And for the higher school I would have to stay where I am. -With another 5 Month practical work which just can't stand with my decision.

So what should I do? I don't have any Idea. Today I should reach my mentor of innership and my mentor from school and tell them what I want to do.
How to judge for my entire life? I don't have any ideas. Not to mend how much my parents spent already for this school (eleven plus and school fees).
And did I said that the class is one of the best I ever had..? Alot of friends would be gone.. Not forever, but my experience says to me that I don't gonna see alot of people again.

All these things are gonna make my decision harder than hard...

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Today, with alot of help from my mentor, I decided to finish this school. This is not what I want. And I don't wanna spend three years (and alot of practical time) without any motivation. This is not a solution for me.
-So I'll use the next time to search for something which may fulfill me in a better way.

.. really hope this is the right thing for me...

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*cesalv Jan 10, 2008, 5:56:42 AM

It's a completely normal feeling, at the beginning always happens, keep in mind that you are doing the things as "they told you", but you'll need to develop your own way (I still remember my first days as a camp monitor when ideas and reality met... well, they collide) the way you do something always can change, the most important thing is that you like what you are doing. Further in time you'll see that there will be always something that will make you uncomfortable and need to find a way to keep on your own, it's always like this (and I'm still trying to asimilate it)

Anyways, I'm sure you'll make the right choice

^_^

*taintedbliss Jan 10, 2008, 7:45:53 PM

If the position that your in would help get to where you WANT to be - by all means, go ahead.

If you find out that there's a different path that you may take that will still lead you to the same destination in the same amount of time that you might enjoy better - without fear of costs of course! By all means, GO!

Hope this one helped

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_{I'm a warrior child.}

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~C0rdita Jan 11, 2008, 3:46:46 AM

yes, this one helps alot! It sounds very positively and that's what I need this time..

I decided today to finish this school. This is not what I want. And I don't wanna spend three years (and alot of practical time) without any motivation. This is not a solution for me.
-So I'll use the next time to search for something which may fulfill me in a better way.

Thank you so much for the help I really appreciate this!

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c0rdita

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[Real beauty comes from within, a treasure for those who can see it..]

~C0rdita Jan 11, 2008, 4:09:49 AM

Yes, that's the problem, the frontal collision from reality and ones own wishes and ways something to do.

But this is not the one thing. I just can't imagine myself to stand this stages and this other 2 and a half years with no inner motivation..

I really hope that this is the right decision and that I'll find something else..!!
(My parents are now expecting from me alot of initiative towards a new job or school..)

Thank you so much for the help!!

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c0rdita

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*taintedbliss Jan 11, 2008, 6:24:34 AM

No worries!

Taintedbliss

_{I'm a warrior child.}

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~kaname-chan Jan 11, 2008, 9:50:18 AM

Such decisions are always so hard. But if this is one that you are not satisfied with. Then you should not force yourself into it dearest. To pursue something that will make you upset is something that is not good for you or your health. But I do understand your restrictions. Finish what you can now in hopes of pursuing a better life when the moment presents itself

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*cesalv Jan 11, 2008, 12:49:11 PM

In this case, go ahead (I'm not wishing you luck since I believe you don't need it ^_^) it's enough motivation by itself

Don't worry too much about them, expecting this is part from their job

take your time, this is one of the few times in life that you can "waste" time on certain things, later everything comes too fast for thinking

Anything, anytime

~jmorante77 Jan 13, 2008, 9:46:25 AM

Du must einfach denken, du brauchst keine Einfluss....
Du must auch denken, dass die studierenden Jahren sind nicht viel, und der Arbeit ist für viele viele Jahren. Wenn du in deinem liebsten Beruf tätig sein konntest, ist wunderbar.Zum Beispiel. Ich studierte hart bis 25 Jahre alt (Ich hatte Fäche schwer wie ein Hölle...), aber ich bin sehr gut jetzt, und ich bin jetzt sehr glücklich (frag cesalv

) ). Du solltest studieren, das Studium du willst, und lass keine sache dagegen stören

, aber denk nicht in der Studium, sondern in der zukunf

Viel glück!!

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